Have a pre-teen. Yes, it's a total cake walk.
Have an over-achiever who is so hard on herself it makes me cry.
Thankfully, pre-teen is adjusting swimmingly well in Middle School. I think it just might be the best transition I've seen from her.
and...... she's a pre-teen in which, GOOD LORD! I do hope we ALL survive the hormones, the ups and downs and well, the EYE ROLLS!!!!
First Day of School: This was the last time they acted like the liked each other.
I'm really thinking I should have had kids when I was 23 then 33. Just a little more space than 19 months apart.... The hormones flying around this place are nuttier than the fruitcake in my freezer from a holiday10 years ago.
I would like to try to recount the last 33 days but alas, I can't. Too much has gone on and too much can't be documented or spoken about or at the very least given the subject matter justice it so deserves.
All I know is......
It is September and when I woke last; it was March.
Time is flying so quickly. I can't seem to grasp a moment and hold it to my heart to remember with any substantial breadth of memory.
I need to stand still or I need to at the very least document it more.
Just to have the memories to hold in my addled mind for comfort. Our kids were here. We loved and we lived.
I guess in the end, this is what we have been doing.
and man, I think we are doing far better than we have in the past.
Actual raw, nerve-ending, emotional, what-the-hell are we doing?
Being in the moment when it is so much easier to get lost in the minutiae of bullshit.
I really never thought we would be here, in this very place, five+ years ago.
I am so very glad we are.
The fight has to be worth it all.